Monday, March 26, 2012
Jesus knows who you are and what you want
Lord, I am like Mary Magdalene: you know who I am and what I want.
She did not know who he was but he knew who she was and that was all that mattered.
We do not know who he is but he knows who we are and that is all that matters.
We cannot see him; this matters little, because he sees us.
We do not love him as we should; still, he loves us. We have no right to his love, but there it is.
Left to ourselves, we have no desire for him, but out of his good grace he has placed desire for him within us. We have become confused, however; we spend the better part of our days directing the desire he gave us for himself towards other affections.
We do not know what we want; no matter, Jesus knows what we want and that is all that matters. He is able to redirect our affections towards him if we will but still ourselves and know that he is God. You do not need to do much; just be still.
In your weeping, listen. Just stop and listen. Like Mary, you will hear him speak your name. He knows your name. He is your Father; how could he forget your name?
He knows who you are; he knows what you want.
Today, tell him who you are; tell him what you want. You can be long or short about it. In either case, when you are finished, just be silent and listen. You have a few minutes to listen. If you listen, you will hear it: he will remind you who you are. He will remind you that you are simply The One He Loves. And he will remind you what you want. He will remind you that the real object of your desire is him, just him, for he never, ever fails. Lay your fears to rest now, child.
Jesus said to Mary, “Woman, why are you crying? Who is it you are looking for?” Then he said to her, “Mary.” -John 20:15-16